For the first time in awhile I have to say this week hasn't been so great. Starting with me knocking the spaghetti sauce pan onto the floor Saturday afternoon and has relentlessly continued on from there. On top of that I have missed two workouts because I have eaten so badly for two days that I haven't had the energy or stamina to work out. Not expecting much of a weight loss this week.
In reflecting back on the last 5 days, I think it's time to add another goal to my list for 2011. I'm going to start working on controlling my emotions and being less reactive. Although I'm not proud of this trait, I am intensly affected by everything people say or do, and coupled with inner stressors, my emotions can be like a pendelum. Some days it literally kills me (and I'm sure it bugs Ricahrd a tad!)
The kiddos have have a had a good week, with the exception of Blake's yucky herpes outbreak. I'm having a bad mom week after finding out I gave teh little guy his first bout of fever blisters. He will now have to live with these nasty devils for life. His fave has been broken out like you wouldn't believe, in probably 8 or 10 blisters all around his mouth and chin. I am so careful not to be kissy with anyone durign one of my outbreaks so I have to guess it's one of those things he may have been more highly succeptibale to. I'll post a pic later of the poor guy.
My weekly weigh in is tomorrow. I think I'm down another 2 pounds but I'll know for certain in the morning. I can't wait to hit the 10 pound mark!!!!!!
XOXO
The first 5
I did it folks! I lost my first official 5 pounds. It has been a long month and I'm sad to think it took so much hard work just to lose 5 pounds but I am confident that I will contonue to lose another 5, and another 5, and another 5...........
People go on crash diets and do all sorts of drastic things to lose 5 pounds and can usually do so in alot less time than I just did, however I'm proud to say that with proper diet modifications and regular exercise I am embarking on the healthiest way to lose weight and hopefully a lifelong change in my habits. I'm already marveling at how I could drink multiple pops a day, eat lunch out EVERY day with coworkers and scarf down fast food anytime I wanted. It just seems unfathomable a month later. I've not had a sip of pop or one fast food meal. I've had a minimum of 5 glasses of water each and every day. I've worked out at least 3 but usually 4-5 times per week, EVERY week. My weak moments can be counted on one hand - I found some candy in my purse last week and ate about 15 M & M's. I also had 10 Reese Miniature cups the other morning instead of my breakfast. At Jill's last weekend I stole a few bites of Blake's frozen pizza.........all in all, I'm darn proud of myself for having such willpower and motivation to do this.
I am still feeling so good and so positive about all of this.
People go on crash diets and do all sorts of drastic things to lose 5 pounds and can usually do so in alot less time than I just did, however I'm proud to say that with proper diet modifications and regular exercise I am embarking on the healthiest way to lose weight and hopefully a lifelong change in my habits. I'm already marveling at how I could drink multiple pops a day, eat lunch out EVERY day with coworkers and scarf down fast food anytime I wanted. It just seems unfathomable a month later. I've not had a sip of pop or one fast food meal. I've had a minimum of 5 glasses of water each and every day. I've worked out at least 3 but usually 4-5 times per week, EVERY week. My weak moments can be counted on one hand - I found some candy in my purse last week and ate about 15 M & M's. I also had 10 Reese Miniature cups the other morning instead of my breakfast. At Jill's last weekend I stole a few bites of Blake's frozen pizza.........all in all, I'm darn proud of myself for having such willpower and motivation to do this.
I am still feeling so good and so positive about all of this.
Keeping up and feeling great!
Tomorrow is my official weigh in, but I sneak on the scale just about every day. It's looking good, but I'll post official 4 week results tomorrow. I am still very much enjoying my (diet) and exercise plan and feeling so good. I've wanted to lose weight for years, so people might wonder "why now" all of a sudden? Maybe I was just never truly ready, willing, or able. Who knows. I swore 2011 would be my year of big change and I am truly feeling it happen.
I also happen to be totally rocking on the coupon front. I found a super deal this morning that made my day, and it wasn't even something I set out to find. Those are the ones I love. I am not quite to the place where I'm seeing major savings, but I am working up to it. There is a method to my madness and I see my master plan coming to fruition!!!!!
Yesterday while I was home with the kids we spent some time outside where Lauren noticed all of the new green foliage sproutng from the front beds. She remembered that we planted bulbs last fall and asked me if it was now springtime. I was as excited as she was to see all the fresh new green poking out so we worked on raking up all of our old mulch (which we've never done) and are adding more garden soil before we mulch again this wpring. Anyone who knows me well knows I have a wierd tendency to need to totally clean out or get rid of certain things and start new. I'll go through the desk, cabinets, ANYTHING and just go crazy for a day and it's like therapy for me. That's kind of what we're doing to the front beds this year and I feel so good. Strange, I know.
We're hoping to get a major jump start on the outside work before Richard takes off on his month long trip to Cleveland later this spring. His company is great about keeping the guys busy with additional training and continuing education, however a month away is just too long for us smack dab in the height of spring yard work -playing outside-park-picnic kind of weather :( We sure will miss him.
XOXO
I also happen to be totally rocking on the coupon front. I found a super deal this morning that made my day, and it wasn't even something I set out to find. Those are the ones I love. I am not quite to the place where I'm seeing major savings, but I am working up to it. There is a method to my madness and I see my master plan coming to fruition!!!!!
Yesterday while I was home with the kids we spent some time outside where Lauren noticed all of the new green foliage sproutng from the front beds. She remembered that we planted bulbs last fall and asked me if it was now springtime. I was as excited as she was to see all the fresh new green poking out so we worked on raking up all of our old mulch (which we've never done) and are adding more garden soil before we mulch again this wpring. Anyone who knows me well knows I have a wierd tendency to need to totally clean out or get rid of certain things and start new. I'll go through the desk, cabinets, ANYTHING and just go crazy for a day and it's like therapy for me. That's kind of what we're doing to the front beds this year and I feel so good. Strange, I know.
We're hoping to get a major jump start on the outside work before Richard takes off on his month long trip to Cleveland later this spring. His company is great about keeping the guys busy with additional training and continuing education, however a month away is just too long for us smack dab in the height of spring yard work -playing outside-park-picnic kind of weather :( We sure will miss him.
XOXO
Energy drain
Today's post is not going to be the most upbeat. I am tired. Let me rephrase, I'm EXHAUSTED! I didn't work out Friday or Saturday nights and got back on schedule last night. Not gonna lie, I was almost too tired to do it but I pushed through a measly 25 minutes of walk/jog anyway. Mentally I was drained from the process of getting Blake to bed. Richard left late to take Morgon home and I was on my own with the kids until almost 9. Blake isn't used to me putting him to bed and never wants me to. After much crying I had to eventually stand outside his door while holding the handle closed until he gave in and started quietly calling for me. When I went back in, he said in the sweetest little voice "I tay in my bed now mommy". I almost cried right there. I put him back in bed and he told me goodnight. At that moment all I wanted to do was crawl in right beside him. My little man, my booey, my bubba, my baby......
BUT, the treadmill was calling me and so was sister. Her demands are wearing me thin. We argue like siblings sometimes. I try so hard not to engage her on that level but as I'm parenting her she is so combative and questioning sometimes, always trying to bargain with me and I don't like it one bit. I admire her determination and strength but it's wearing on me daily. Yesterday was one of those days. By bedtime I was literally falling in bed, only to wake up to her tapping me at midnight to come up and sleep with her. I ignored her as long as I could until she was stomping her feet in our dark bedroom telling (one of us) to come sleep with her. I've asked every parent I know what they would do with a child like like this who demands so much and is so unwilling to take NO for an answer and I get the same response over and over. Put your foot down, don't give in, she'll learn............
Why, then, is it not working with her? I'm tired of fighting with her over everything. Are we destined to be at each others throats our entire life? I surely didn't picture my relationship with my only daughter to be this way. Some of it is the age, I know, but I'm afraid most of it is just who she is. My plan is to teach her how to channel her determination into something wonderful, but at age 4, it's so draining some days.
Here's looking forward to another great and productive week. I'm aiming for another 2 pound weight loss and a few hours of extra sleep.
XOXO
BUT, the treadmill was calling me and so was sister. Her demands are wearing me thin. We argue like siblings sometimes. I try so hard not to engage her on that level but as I'm parenting her she is so combative and questioning sometimes, always trying to bargain with me and I don't like it one bit. I admire her determination and strength but it's wearing on me daily. Yesterday was one of those days. By bedtime I was literally falling in bed, only to wake up to her tapping me at midnight to come up and sleep with her. I ignored her as long as I could until she was stomping her feet in our dark bedroom telling (one of us) to come sleep with her. I've asked every parent I know what they would do with a child like like this who demands so much and is so unwilling to take NO for an answer and I get the same response over and over. Put your foot down, don't give in, she'll learn............
Why, then, is it not working with her? I'm tired of fighting with her over everything. Are we destined to be at each others throats our entire life? I surely didn't picture my relationship with my only daughter to be this way. Some of it is the age, I know, but I'm afraid most of it is just who she is. My plan is to teach her how to channel her determination into something wonderful, but at age 4, it's so draining some days.
Here's looking forward to another great and productive week. I'm aiming for another 2 pound weight loss and a few hours of extra sleep.
XOXO
Lots of good things going on this week
Weekly Recap -
I'm two weeks into the my weight loss plan and I'm feeling GREAT!!! I started week one by working out on the treadmill and exercise ball every day. On Friday of last week I got the urge to go even one step further and hopped on a Weight Watchers-online plan. I am so happy I did!!! My weigh in day is tomorrow, but I snuck on the scale this morning and looks like I've possibly lost 2-2.5 lbs this week alone! WOO HOOO!!!
Our Blakey boy is only one small step away from officially being a big boy. We put together his new bed on Sunday and lemme tell ya, that boy thought it was so cool! Now we gotta get rid of the diapers and we'll be home free. He has been helping Daddy work any time he can and got to help out with the new bed. He wants to work on anything and everything. My goodness, he is such a wonderful little man. Daddy assemble the bed and has been a complete angel going to sleep and staying in bed all night. Never could I dream that my two children would be so different from one another........I'll post some new pics this weekend of him with his new bed.
XOXO
I'm two weeks into the my weight loss plan and I'm feeling GREAT!!! I started week one by working out on the treadmill and exercise ball every day. On Friday of last week I got the urge to go even one step further and hopped on a Weight Watchers-online plan. I am so happy I did!!! My weigh in day is tomorrow, but I snuck on the scale this morning and looks like I've possibly lost 2-2.5 lbs this week alone! WOO HOOO!!!
Our Blakey boy is only one small step away from officially being a big boy. We put together his new bed on Sunday and lemme tell ya, that boy thought it was so cool! Now we gotta get rid of the diapers and we'll be home free. He has been helping Daddy work any time he can and got to help out with the new bed. He wants to work on anything and everything. My goodness, he is such a wonderful little man. Daddy assemble the bed and has been a complete angel going to sleep and staying in bed all night. Never could I dream that my two children would be so different from one another........I'll post some new pics this weekend of him with his new bed.
XOXO
We're all learning and growing
As I mentioned earlier I'm worse than a Hallmark card when it came to my emotions about my children. This is not a feeling anyone can prepare you for before parenthood. It's indescribable to every degree, but today is a day that I have to at least blabber the best I can about them. I had one of those nights where a certain child needed me terribly and I've been reflecting on what it is that they have blessed me with.
My kids are both at such wonderful ages and I often say if I could freeze time I would. I think I've said that at every age thus far and am glad we're not stuck in some of the other phases we went through. So I've decided it's not that I want to stop right here and right now, it's that I was to remember everything about these moments. Every smell, every touch, every laugh, cry, tickle, every expression and every single thing about their way of communicating and their little personalities. That's one big reason I take pictures, but it helps me to journal things like this, which I often do but not as much as I'd like. I print my blogs to save for my kids so this serves as my journal to them as well.
First there is Lauren. Lulu. Sissy. Wornen. Lornie. These are all of the beloved names that have been given to my beautiful girl by all those that love her. She's all princesses and bows, despite her genetics to be a tomboy. That is something she isn't and I'm still trying to figure out all the girly stuff with her. She's fussy, she's attention seeking and demanding. She is wise beyond her years and very articulate, speaking volumes from a very early age. She is questioning and curious and must ask me 1000 questions a day. She is attached to momma like nothing else I can describe . She is the most loving and sweet little girl I have ever met. She does not withhold any affection and loves to nurture me. She has to touch me, rub me, stroke me, kiss me, or hold me all the time. It's a bit odd, but I know one day she'll be sick of the sight of me and I'll think back to these days and smile. There has to be a reason I shouldn't be allowing this, like it may cause her to stay too dependant on me later in life......... but I'm not sure how to teach her not to show me so much affection and attention. That in itself seems wrong.
Then there is Mr B. Blakey Boo. Bubba Boy. Boo Boo Boy. Blakers. He is my joy. He is what completes me. He is soft and silly and shy. He is so ticklish and has the best laugh in the world. His smile melts me and his blue-brown eyes cut straight to my heart every darn time I look at him. He is learning so much so fast, and I'm ecstatic to hear him stringing sentences together. He is a man's man (a man's boy??) and is attached to his Daddy in a way only he could be. He is our fix it man, our future MMA fighter (if he can stop from laughing every time he's touched)and protector of big sissy. He is physical and strong and knows it. He is emotional and loses his breath when he cries if you chastise him. Makes you want to scoop him up and love on him the minute you smack his hand or raise your voice. He's like his big brothers Morgon and Trey all rolled into one. I can't believe I have the pleasure of being his mommy. What a blassing and reward!
These kids are the reason I wake up every morning. I greet the day with excitement to see what wonderous things they will do and say. My fuse is shorter than I'd like it to be most times and our busy schedules don't help my stress levels much at all. My joy comes each day as I take note all the ways I have practiced patience and understanding with these two miracles. Having them has forever changed me, as every person says it will. You just don't know, until it happens. I am a mom who lives and breaths for my kids and always will. You won't find me planning a weekly girls night out, dinners alone with my husband, a spa day away, or an adult only vacations. I have forgotten what brand names are important, don't know what hairstyles are cool anymore, So many women say these are the things that keep them sane but my kids will look back and remember that mom was there every minute of every day that she could be. Short of working full time, they are a part of every.single.thing.I.do. Including working out......ha.
My kids are both at such wonderful ages and I often say if I could freeze time I would. I think I've said that at every age thus far and am glad we're not stuck in some of the other phases we went through. So I've decided it's not that I want to stop right here and right now, it's that I was to remember everything about these moments. Every smell, every touch, every laugh, cry, tickle, every expression and every single thing about their way of communicating and their little personalities. That's one big reason I take pictures, but it helps me to journal things like this, which I often do but not as much as I'd like. I print my blogs to save for my kids so this serves as my journal to them as well.
First there is Lauren. Lulu. Sissy. Wornen. Lornie. These are all of the beloved names that have been given to my beautiful girl by all those that love her. She's all princesses and bows, despite her genetics to be a tomboy. That is something she isn't and I'm still trying to figure out all the girly stuff with her. She's fussy, she's attention seeking and demanding. She is wise beyond her years and very articulate, speaking volumes from a very early age. She is questioning and curious and must ask me 1000 questions a day. She is attached to momma like nothing else I can describe . She is the most loving and sweet little girl I have ever met. She does not withhold any affection and loves to nurture me. She has to touch me, rub me, stroke me, kiss me, or hold me all the time. It's a bit odd, but I know one day she'll be sick of the sight of me and I'll think back to these days and smile. There has to be a reason I shouldn't be allowing this, like it may cause her to stay too dependant on me later in life......... but I'm not sure how to teach her not to show me so much affection and attention. That in itself seems wrong.
Then there is Mr B. Blakey Boo. Bubba Boy. Boo Boo Boy. Blakers. He is my joy. He is what completes me. He is soft and silly and shy. He is so ticklish and has the best laugh in the world. His smile melts me and his blue-brown eyes cut straight to my heart every darn time I look at him. He is learning so much so fast, and I'm ecstatic to hear him stringing sentences together. He is a man's man (a man's boy??) and is attached to his Daddy in a way only he could be. He is our fix it man, our future MMA fighter (if he can stop from laughing every time he's touched)and protector of big sissy. He is physical and strong and knows it. He is emotional and loses his breath when he cries if you chastise him. Makes you want to scoop him up and love on him the minute you smack his hand or raise your voice. He's like his big brothers Morgon and Trey all rolled into one. I can't believe I have the pleasure of being his mommy. What a blassing and reward!
These kids are the reason I wake up every morning. I greet the day with excitement to see what wonderous things they will do and say. My fuse is shorter than I'd like it to be most times and our busy schedules don't help my stress levels much at all. My joy comes each day as I take note all the ways I have practiced patience and understanding with these two miracles. Having them has forever changed me, as every person says it will. You just don't know, until it happens. I am a mom who lives and breaths for my kids and always will. You won't find me planning a weekly girls night out, dinners alone with my husband, a spa day away, or an adult only vacations. I have forgotten what brand names are important, don't know what hairstyles are cool anymore, So many women say these are the things that keep them sane but my kids will look back and remember that mom was there every minute of every day that she could be. Short of working full time, they are a part of every.single.thing.I.do. Including working out......ha.
Old sayings ring true
"Today is the first day of the rest of your life"
How many times has this applied in your life? In mine, I've lost count. I feel I'm constantly starting over, reinventing, rejuvinating, or reevaluating a portion of my life. Today is no different. After a solid week of working out daily I am elated at how wonderful I feel, so I woke up with the notion that I would take this weight loss seriously and on a whim, joined weight watchers online. I've been a part of weight watchers in the past when I thought I was super huge and fat and ugly and disgusting - at 135lbs. What a misconception that was, eh? I can't blame myself - I was only 23 at the time and when everyone around me is stick thin my curves made me feel like a fatty. Man, if only........ LOL. I was successful at losing 10 lbs and had no trouble at all sticking to my diet. The problem today is that I am cooking for an entire family whose tastes are diverse and varied. Richard is meat and potatoes all the way, while the kiddos are into kid food or anything pasta. They won't touch a potato in any form. No french fry, no mashed potato, nothing!!!! You can see how this poses a problem. The "2011 Jen" will find a way to overcome this obstacle while also meeting my own needs. Watch out world, I'm on a roll :)
How many times has this applied in your life? In mine, I've lost count. I feel I'm constantly starting over, reinventing, rejuvinating, or reevaluating a portion of my life. Today is no different. After a solid week of working out daily I am elated at how wonderful I feel, so I woke up with the notion that I would take this weight loss seriously and on a whim, joined weight watchers online. I've been a part of weight watchers in the past when I thought I was super huge and fat and ugly and disgusting - at 135lbs. What a misconception that was, eh? I can't blame myself - I was only 23 at the time and when everyone around me is stick thin my curves made me feel like a fatty. Man, if only........ LOL. I was successful at losing 10 lbs and had no trouble at all sticking to my diet. The problem today is that I am cooking for an entire family whose tastes are diverse and varied. Richard is meat and potatoes all the way, while the kiddos are into kid food or anything pasta. They won't touch a potato in any form. No french fry, no mashed potato, nothing!!!! You can see how this poses a problem. The "2011 Jen" will find a way to overcome this obstacle while also meeting my own needs. Watch out world, I'm on a roll :)
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