Round 1 down, on to round 2 with added gusto!
Cheering loudly over here! I can now say I've officially lost my first 10 pounds. My spirit is renewed to see my first real milestone in my weightloss journey. For my birthday I got a new exercise bike to add diversity to my workouts and I couldn't be more ecstatic to start phase 2, my next 10 pounds. The bike came out of the box with some damaged parts so it's got to go back to Dick's, thus setting me back about a week of biking. I'm not complaining though.
Kids had a fabulous Easter. They were so excited for the Easter bunny to come adn of course Lauren could NOT get to sleep. That's nothing new, though. Their baskets were overflowing with goodies this year! I am truly overcome with joy when I see the wonder and amazement during all of these precious moments for them. We had a great egg hunt with our neighbors, something we do annually. Kiddos love it and it's great to get together with all the great people we live around.
Which reminds me.....I'm going to add pictures to the blog soon. I promise :)
Tomorrow is my 34th birthday! I got to celebrate with my family on Easter in a little surprise party which was so great. 33 definitely had it's up and downs but I've already starting 34 in the upswing. My goal is to keep this positive momentum going strong all year!
XOXO
Dreading Friday
I should be looking forward to the weekend, but at this very moment in time I am dreading Friday. It's weigh in day. I am so afraid I'm not going to hit the 10 pound mark and it's killing me. I'm counting points, calories, fat, sodium, fiber and protein and have to say I'm eating damn well. COME ON!!!!! I have 2 days to pull this off..............can I do it???
XOXO
XOXO
What I've learned this week
4 important things I've learned this week:
1) How you look is a reflection of how you feel. I haven't lost 10 pounds yet, but already feel so different physically in my clothing. I am wearing things I would never have worn 5 pounds ago. It's not like I'm suddenly a size 6, but my mindset has really been improved.
2) It's okay to break your diet once in awhile. 3 bowls of fruity pebbles at 9 pm isn't a good reason, but sure can satisfy the urge to binge :) Beware though because you will most definitely wake up feeling like you could eat anything in sight. How odd is that???
3) Sometimes daydreams should remain daydreams. It's not always so hot in reality. This is one I've been waiting for...... Ever smile at the thought of snuggling with your two loving children in bed during a thunderstorm while they fall fast asleep in your arms? Sure it sounds so warm and cozy, and it is for a matter of seconds. Until they've cuddled for 10 minutes and you are almost back to sleep. That's when they decide it's time to wrestle and make tents with the blankets at 3 am.
4) Appreciate what you have and acknowledge it. Every.single.day. You can never, ever, EVER assume anyone else has it better than you, is happier than you, better off than you, etc from observations you make from the outside. Sometimes those are the ones dealing with the most grief, drama, or other horrible life situation that no ones knows about.
What have YOU learned this week??
XOXO
1) How you look is a reflection of how you feel. I haven't lost 10 pounds yet, but already feel so different physically in my clothing. I am wearing things I would never have worn 5 pounds ago. It's not like I'm suddenly a size 6, but my mindset has really been improved.
2) It's okay to break your diet once in awhile. 3 bowls of fruity pebbles at 9 pm isn't a good reason, but sure can satisfy the urge to binge :) Beware though because you will most definitely wake up feeling like you could eat anything in sight. How odd is that???
3) Sometimes daydreams should remain daydreams. It's not always so hot in reality. This is one I've been waiting for...... Ever smile at the thought of snuggling with your two loving children in bed during a thunderstorm while they fall fast asleep in your arms? Sure it sounds so warm and cozy, and it is for a matter of seconds. Until they've cuddled for 10 minutes and you are almost back to sleep. That's when they decide it's time to wrestle and make tents with the blankets at 3 am.
4) Appreciate what you have and acknowledge it. Every.single.day. You can never, ever, EVER assume anyone else has it better than you, is happier than you, better off than you, etc from observations you make from the outside. Sometimes those are the ones dealing with the most grief, drama, or other horrible life situation that no ones knows about.
What have YOU learned this week??
XOXO
Update!
I'm not sure what to title this post except "Update". Since that's kind of what I've made this blog into ....an ongoing capture of what is going on in my life........ I'm gonna be super original here and say, "here's an UPDATE"!
I'm getting frustrated with my weight loss journey. I've hit some mentally rough patches during the last week that I am trying hard to iron out. I suddenly feel like I've been at this forever and am not getting anywhere. I know the reality is that I've been at this for just under 7 weeks and I HAVE gotten somewhere. Just not where I am envisioning myself to be at this point. I'm hanging on and hanging in there, though. Note to self: GET OFF THE DAMN SCALE FOR A WEEK! Cranked up the intensity of my workouts so I'll report back in a few weeks with an update.
I haven't touched on my photography stuff in a short while. I'm lacking inspiration in this department lately. It's hard to be inspired when I'm so consumed with taking care of family and myself, but I'm making an effort to start seeking out inspiration daily. I'm feeling a but negative since I have no new prospective clientes on the horizon anytime soon. I keep telling myself to market, market, market but I don't have the time, time, time to be busy, busy, busy. My ideal plan would be to have one client per month. The problem is, no marketing equals no new potential clients. Why am I afraid to just put myself out there? Becuase it's revealing. It's in your face. It's like shouting to the world and we all know I do not do well with that. I'm trying hard to keep my personal and professional tendencies on their own plane, but this is a case where I'm having a hard time overcoming a personal trait that is suffocating my professional desires.
Okay, it's getting too deep for a Wednesday. Let's just add this to my 2011 list of goals since I'm doing so well with everything else I set out to do this year :)
Yay me!
XOXO
I'm getting frustrated with my weight loss journey. I've hit some mentally rough patches during the last week that I am trying hard to iron out. I suddenly feel like I've been at this forever and am not getting anywhere. I know the reality is that I've been at this for just under 7 weeks and I HAVE gotten somewhere. Just not where I am envisioning myself to be at this point. I'm hanging on and hanging in there, though. Note to self: GET OFF THE DAMN SCALE FOR A WEEK! Cranked up the intensity of my workouts so I'll report back in a few weeks with an update.
I haven't touched on my photography stuff in a short while. I'm lacking inspiration in this department lately. It's hard to be inspired when I'm so consumed with taking care of family and myself, but I'm making an effort to start seeking out inspiration daily. I'm feeling a but negative since I have no new prospective clientes on the horizon anytime soon. I keep telling myself to market, market, market but I don't have the time, time, time to be busy, busy, busy. My ideal plan would be to have one client per month. The problem is, no marketing equals no new potential clients. Why am I afraid to just put myself out there? Becuase it's revealing. It's in your face. It's like shouting to the world and we all know I do not do well with that. I'm trying hard to keep my personal and professional tendencies on their own plane, but this is a case where I'm having a hard time overcoming a personal trait that is suffocating my professional desires.
Okay, it's getting too deep for a Wednesday. Let's just add this to my 2011 list of goals since I'm doing so well with everything else I set out to do this year :)
Yay me!
XOXO
I want to read this book!
This true story compels me to want to read her book. It's called "A Tale of New Lives" by Marie Walsh. She escaped wrongful imprisonment and lived as a fugitive for 30 years under a new name with a new life. Had a husband and 3 children who never knew her past. Sounds GOOD! See the recent news story here - http://www.wcpo.com/dpp/news/national/calif.-mother-of-3-recounts-life-as-an-%27outlaw%27
Tough love is hard!
I've never thought of myself as a mushy person. I mean sure I like romance, I like emotional intamacy and good connections with people, but I've never been too huggy-kissy-sappy!
Until I had kids.........
These kids have brought out the mushiest, sappiest kind of love there ever could be inside of me! I want to hold them, squeeze them, tell them a zillion times I love them, stare at them in wonder and amazement.......AND never let them go. Ever. Really, EVER! (Un)lucky for me Lauren is just as crazy about all the mushiness as I am. Blake, not so much. Lauren and I have allowed our mushiness to turn into a bad habit over night. In retrospect, I just saw it as necessary bonding time and part of something much bigger. She's needed me in a way that only she can need me..............and NOW we're both paying the price.
This week I've introduced sleep training for my 4 year old. While I've enjoyed the last year of snuggling close to her at night after missing her all day, we're both suffering. She wakes up countless times a night looking for me becuase she doesn't want to sleep alone, etc. Neither of us get a full nights sleep in our own beds (I have a husband, ya know!!) and I am often confused and forgetting where I am and what day it is beucase I am all over the place all night long. We saw her pediatrician earlier this week who made some good suggestions that we are incorporating immediately. Lauren's always been over the top, dramatic, needy, vocal, and demanding...........so this is going to be hard becuase there has been alot of crying on her part and alot of guilt on my part. Bottom line is we need our space. Literally. I'm not good at tough love. I want to bed over backwards to make my kids happy. I never want them to wonder how much I love them. Sadly, this makes me feel like she thinks I suddenly don't love her as much. What a complicated feeling.
On the other hand, I only dream of Blake needing me this much. I want him to be a momma's boy but he's definitely not. At least not at this stage. If it roars, works, has tires or makes noise then he's cool with it. Mom doesn't do those things so at this point he's okay just to say hi to me in passing. He doesn't want to be hugged, carried, snuggled, or loved on for longer than a millisecond and it makes me sad. It's kind of the reason I really felt I wanted more kids so I could balance out all the differing personalities, never havign to worry if one felt favored over the other just becuase they are so different on every level. With one child of each extreme it is sort of a challenge to balance the vast differences BUT.........there will be no more kids and I'll find a way to balance what I've got :) Adding that to my goals for 2011.
Until I had kids.........
These kids have brought out the mushiest, sappiest kind of love there ever could be inside of me! I want to hold them, squeeze them, tell them a zillion times I love them, stare at them in wonder and amazement.......AND never let them go. Ever. Really, EVER! (Un)lucky for me Lauren is just as crazy about all the mushiness as I am. Blake, not so much. Lauren and I have allowed our mushiness to turn into a bad habit over night. In retrospect, I just saw it as necessary bonding time and part of something much bigger. She's needed me in a way that only she can need me..............and NOW we're both paying the price.
This week I've introduced sleep training for my 4 year old. While I've enjoyed the last year of snuggling close to her at night after missing her all day, we're both suffering. She wakes up countless times a night looking for me becuase she doesn't want to sleep alone, etc. Neither of us get a full nights sleep in our own beds (I have a husband, ya know!!) and I am often confused and forgetting where I am and what day it is beucase I am all over the place all night long. We saw her pediatrician earlier this week who made some good suggestions that we are incorporating immediately. Lauren's always been over the top, dramatic, needy, vocal, and demanding...........so this is going to be hard becuase there has been alot of crying on her part and alot of guilt on my part. Bottom line is we need our space. Literally. I'm not good at tough love. I want to bed over backwards to make my kids happy. I never want them to wonder how much I love them. Sadly, this makes me feel like she thinks I suddenly don't love her as much. What a complicated feeling.
On the other hand, I only dream of Blake needing me this much. I want him to be a momma's boy but he's definitely not. At least not at this stage. If it roars, works, has tires or makes noise then he's cool with it. Mom doesn't do those things so at this point he's okay just to say hi to me in passing. He doesn't want to be hugged, carried, snuggled, or loved on for longer than a millisecond and it makes me sad. It's kind of the reason I really felt I wanted more kids so I could balance out all the differing personalities, never havign to worry if one felt favored over the other just becuase they are so different on every level. With one child of each extreme it is sort of a challenge to balance the vast differences BUT.........there will be no more kids and I'll find a way to balance what I've got :) Adding that to my goals for 2011.
Adding a few more goals to 2011
For the first time in awhile I have to say this week hasn't been so great. Starting with me knocking the spaghetti sauce pan onto the floor Saturday afternoon and has relentlessly continued on from there. On top of that I have missed two workouts because I have eaten so badly for two days that I haven't had the energy or stamina to work out. Not expecting much of a weight loss this week.
In reflecting back on the last 5 days, I think it's time to add another goal to my list for 2011. I'm going to start working on controlling my emotions and being less reactive. Although I'm not proud of this trait, I am intensly affected by everything people say or do, and coupled with inner stressors, my emotions can be like a pendelum. Some days it literally kills me (and I'm sure it bugs Ricahrd a tad!)
The kiddos have have a had a good week, with the exception of Blake's yucky herpes outbreak. I'm having a bad mom week after finding out I gave teh little guy his first bout of fever blisters. He will now have to live with these nasty devils for life. His fave has been broken out like you wouldn't believe, in probably 8 or 10 blisters all around his mouth and chin. I am so careful not to be kissy with anyone durign one of my outbreaks so I have to guess it's one of those things he may have been more highly succeptibale to. I'll post a pic later of the poor guy.
My weekly weigh in is tomorrow. I think I'm down another 2 pounds but I'll know for certain in the morning. I can't wait to hit the 10 pound mark!!!!!!
XOXO
In reflecting back on the last 5 days, I think it's time to add another goal to my list for 2011. I'm going to start working on controlling my emotions and being less reactive. Although I'm not proud of this trait, I am intensly affected by everything people say or do, and coupled with inner stressors, my emotions can be like a pendelum. Some days it literally kills me (and I'm sure it bugs Ricahrd a tad!)
The kiddos have have a had a good week, with the exception of Blake's yucky herpes outbreak. I'm having a bad mom week after finding out I gave teh little guy his first bout of fever blisters. He will now have to live with these nasty devils for life. His fave has been broken out like you wouldn't believe, in probably 8 or 10 blisters all around his mouth and chin. I am so careful not to be kissy with anyone durign one of my outbreaks so I have to guess it's one of those things he may have been more highly succeptibale to. I'll post a pic later of the poor guy.
My weekly weigh in is tomorrow. I think I'm down another 2 pounds but I'll know for certain in the morning. I can't wait to hit the 10 pound mark!!!!!!
XOXO
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