It hasn't been the greatest week but I'm still positive about 2011 as a whole :) This week it seems lots of exciting things are going on for many people around me and for that I wish them all well!
I've been thinking alot lately about personal things that we all want to do but have not yet done, or don't feel we could ever do, becuase it seems out of reach for whatever reason.
What are some of those things you have considered doing but haven't yet done (or maybe you can say you've DONE them??)
Is it fear that's holding you back? Money? Time? What prevents you from doing it?
Right now there are 3 things on my list of "lifetime" to-do's and I'm finally looking into one of those things. It's scary, it's exciting, and it may be a letdown, but nonetheless I have the guts to check it out and see how I can make it happen. It's something totally for ME and that's hard to swallow. By nature I cater to others first, and now that I'm a mom I feel that certain others should always come first in my life. However, life is short......I'm not getting any younger.....time slips away and if you don't grab it, it's gone. If you have the chance to do soemthing that truly makes you happy then others around you will reap the benefits of your actions.
XOXO
Old memories........
I ran across this old pic today of me and boo. He was about 4 months old here. What a face!!! His skin used to be so dry that if he even touched it, it would scratch and bleed...hence all the little scabbies all over. I am so glad we're past that stage but I sure miss having a baby around. Not enough to make me want more though HA!
XOXO
Saying nothing
Sometimes it's best just to say nothing. Pretty simple and we've all heard it before, right??
When you've said everything you can, in every way possible, maybe it's time you start saying nothing. The impact you make by saying "nothing" is usually far greater than you know.
When you've said everything you can, in every way possible, maybe it's time you start saying nothing. The impact you make by saying "nothing" is usually far greater than you know.
Round 1 down, on to round 2 with added gusto!
Cheering loudly over here! I can now say I've officially lost my first 10 pounds. My spirit is renewed to see my first real milestone in my weightloss journey. For my birthday I got a new exercise bike to add diversity to my workouts and I couldn't be more ecstatic to start phase 2, my next 10 pounds. The bike came out of the box with some damaged parts so it's got to go back to Dick's, thus setting me back about a week of biking. I'm not complaining though.
Kids had a fabulous Easter. They were so excited for the Easter bunny to come adn of course Lauren could NOT get to sleep. That's nothing new, though. Their baskets were overflowing with goodies this year! I am truly overcome with joy when I see the wonder and amazement during all of these precious moments for them. We had a great egg hunt with our neighbors, something we do annually. Kiddos love it and it's great to get together with all the great people we live around.
Which reminds me.....I'm going to add pictures to the blog soon. I promise :)
Tomorrow is my 34th birthday! I got to celebrate with my family on Easter in a little surprise party which was so great. 33 definitely had it's up and downs but I've already starting 34 in the upswing. My goal is to keep this positive momentum going strong all year!
XOXO
Dreading Friday
I should be looking forward to the weekend, but at this very moment in time I am dreading Friday. It's weigh in day. I am so afraid I'm not going to hit the 10 pound mark and it's killing me. I'm counting points, calories, fat, sodium, fiber and protein and have to say I'm eating damn well. COME ON!!!!! I have 2 days to pull this off..............can I do it???
XOXO
XOXO
What I've learned this week
4 important things I've learned this week:
1) How you look is a reflection of how you feel. I haven't lost 10 pounds yet, but already feel so different physically in my clothing. I am wearing things I would never have worn 5 pounds ago. It's not like I'm suddenly a size 6, but my mindset has really been improved.
2) It's okay to break your diet once in awhile. 3 bowls of fruity pebbles at 9 pm isn't a good reason, but sure can satisfy the urge to binge :) Beware though because you will most definitely wake up feeling like you could eat anything in sight. How odd is that???
3) Sometimes daydreams should remain daydreams. It's not always so hot in reality. This is one I've been waiting for...... Ever smile at the thought of snuggling with your two loving children in bed during a thunderstorm while they fall fast asleep in your arms? Sure it sounds so warm and cozy, and it is for a matter of seconds. Until they've cuddled for 10 minutes and you are almost back to sleep. That's when they decide it's time to wrestle and make tents with the blankets at 3 am.
4) Appreciate what you have and acknowledge it. Every.single.day. You can never, ever, EVER assume anyone else has it better than you, is happier than you, better off than you, etc from observations you make from the outside. Sometimes those are the ones dealing with the most grief, drama, or other horrible life situation that no ones knows about.
What have YOU learned this week??
XOXO
1) How you look is a reflection of how you feel. I haven't lost 10 pounds yet, but already feel so different physically in my clothing. I am wearing things I would never have worn 5 pounds ago. It's not like I'm suddenly a size 6, but my mindset has really been improved.
2) It's okay to break your diet once in awhile. 3 bowls of fruity pebbles at 9 pm isn't a good reason, but sure can satisfy the urge to binge :) Beware though because you will most definitely wake up feeling like you could eat anything in sight. How odd is that???
3) Sometimes daydreams should remain daydreams. It's not always so hot in reality. This is one I've been waiting for...... Ever smile at the thought of snuggling with your two loving children in bed during a thunderstorm while they fall fast asleep in your arms? Sure it sounds so warm and cozy, and it is for a matter of seconds. Until they've cuddled for 10 minutes and you are almost back to sleep. That's when they decide it's time to wrestle and make tents with the blankets at 3 am.
4) Appreciate what you have and acknowledge it. Every.single.day. You can never, ever, EVER assume anyone else has it better than you, is happier than you, better off than you, etc from observations you make from the outside. Sometimes those are the ones dealing with the most grief, drama, or other horrible life situation that no ones knows about.
What have YOU learned this week??
XOXO
Update!
I'm not sure what to title this post except "Update". Since that's kind of what I've made this blog into ....an ongoing capture of what is going on in my life........ I'm gonna be super original here and say, "here's an UPDATE"!
I'm getting frustrated with my weight loss journey. I've hit some mentally rough patches during the last week that I am trying hard to iron out. I suddenly feel like I've been at this forever and am not getting anywhere. I know the reality is that I've been at this for just under 7 weeks and I HAVE gotten somewhere. Just not where I am envisioning myself to be at this point. I'm hanging on and hanging in there, though. Note to self: GET OFF THE DAMN SCALE FOR A WEEK! Cranked up the intensity of my workouts so I'll report back in a few weeks with an update.
I haven't touched on my photography stuff in a short while. I'm lacking inspiration in this department lately. It's hard to be inspired when I'm so consumed with taking care of family and myself, but I'm making an effort to start seeking out inspiration daily. I'm feeling a but negative since I have no new prospective clientes on the horizon anytime soon. I keep telling myself to market, market, market but I don't have the time, time, time to be busy, busy, busy. My ideal plan would be to have one client per month. The problem is, no marketing equals no new potential clients. Why am I afraid to just put myself out there? Becuase it's revealing. It's in your face. It's like shouting to the world and we all know I do not do well with that. I'm trying hard to keep my personal and professional tendencies on their own plane, but this is a case where I'm having a hard time overcoming a personal trait that is suffocating my professional desires.
Okay, it's getting too deep for a Wednesday. Let's just add this to my 2011 list of goals since I'm doing so well with everything else I set out to do this year :)
Yay me!
XOXO
I'm getting frustrated with my weight loss journey. I've hit some mentally rough patches during the last week that I am trying hard to iron out. I suddenly feel like I've been at this forever and am not getting anywhere. I know the reality is that I've been at this for just under 7 weeks and I HAVE gotten somewhere. Just not where I am envisioning myself to be at this point. I'm hanging on and hanging in there, though. Note to self: GET OFF THE DAMN SCALE FOR A WEEK! Cranked up the intensity of my workouts so I'll report back in a few weeks with an update.
I haven't touched on my photography stuff in a short while. I'm lacking inspiration in this department lately. It's hard to be inspired when I'm so consumed with taking care of family and myself, but I'm making an effort to start seeking out inspiration daily. I'm feeling a but negative since I have no new prospective clientes on the horizon anytime soon. I keep telling myself to market, market, market but I don't have the time, time, time to be busy, busy, busy. My ideal plan would be to have one client per month. The problem is, no marketing equals no new potential clients. Why am I afraid to just put myself out there? Becuase it's revealing. It's in your face. It's like shouting to the world and we all know I do not do well with that. I'm trying hard to keep my personal and professional tendencies on their own plane, but this is a case where I'm having a hard time overcoming a personal trait that is suffocating my professional desires.
Okay, it's getting too deep for a Wednesday. Let's just add this to my 2011 list of goals since I'm doing so well with everything else I set out to do this year :)
Yay me!
XOXO
I want to read this book!
This true story compels me to want to read her book. It's called "A Tale of New Lives" by Marie Walsh. She escaped wrongful imprisonment and lived as a fugitive for 30 years under a new name with a new life. Had a husband and 3 children who never knew her past. Sounds GOOD! See the recent news story here - http://www.wcpo.com/dpp/news/national/calif.-mother-of-3-recounts-life-as-an-%27outlaw%27
Tough love is hard!
I've never thought of myself as a mushy person. I mean sure I like romance, I like emotional intamacy and good connections with people, but I've never been too huggy-kissy-sappy!
Until I had kids.........
These kids have brought out the mushiest, sappiest kind of love there ever could be inside of me! I want to hold them, squeeze them, tell them a zillion times I love them, stare at them in wonder and amazement.......AND never let them go. Ever. Really, EVER! (Un)lucky for me Lauren is just as crazy about all the mushiness as I am. Blake, not so much. Lauren and I have allowed our mushiness to turn into a bad habit over night. In retrospect, I just saw it as necessary bonding time and part of something much bigger. She's needed me in a way that only she can need me..............and NOW we're both paying the price.
This week I've introduced sleep training for my 4 year old. While I've enjoyed the last year of snuggling close to her at night after missing her all day, we're both suffering. She wakes up countless times a night looking for me becuase she doesn't want to sleep alone, etc. Neither of us get a full nights sleep in our own beds (I have a husband, ya know!!) and I am often confused and forgetting where I am and what day it is beucase I am all over the place all night long. We saw her pediatrician earlier this week who made some good suggestions that we are incorporating immediately. Lauren's always been over the top, dramatic, needy, vocal, and demanding...........so this is going to be hard becuase there has been alot of crying on her part and alot of guilt on my part. Bottom line is we need our space. Literally. I'm not good at tough love. I want to bed over backwards to make my kids happy. I never want them to wonder how much I love them. Sadly, this makes me feel like she thinks I suddenly don't love her as much. What a complicated feeling.
On the other hand, I only dream of Blake needing me this much. I want him to be a momma's boy but he's definitely not. At least not at this stage. If it roars, works, has tires or makes noise then he's cool with it. Mom doesn't do those things so at this point he's okay just to say hi to me in passing. He doesn't want to be hugged, carried, snuggled, or loved on for longer than a millisecond and it makes me sad. It's kind of the reason I really felt I wanted more kids so I could balance out all the differing personalities, never havign to worry if one felt favored over the other just becuase they are so different on every level. With one child of each extreme it is sort of a challenge to balance the vast differences BUT.........there will be no more kids and I'll find a way to balance what I've got :) Adding that to my goals for 2011.
Until I had kids.........
These kids have brought out the mushiest, sappiest kind of love there ever could be inside of me! I want to hold them, squeeze them, tell them a zillion times I love them, stare at them in wonder and amazement.......AND never let them go. Ever. Really, EVER! (Un)lucky for me Lauren is just as crazy about all the mushiness as I am. Blake, not so much. Lauren and I have allowed our mushiness to turn into a bad habit over night. In retrospect, I just saw it as necessary bonding time and part of something much bigger. She's needed me in a way that only she can need me..............and NOW we're both paying the price.
This week I've introduced sleep training for my 4 year old. While I've enjoyed the last year of snuggling close to her at night after missing her all day, we're both suffering. She wakes up countless times a night looking for me becuase she doesn't want to sleep alone, etc. Neither of us get a full nights sleep in our own beds (I have a husband, ya know!!) and I am often confused and forgetting where I am and what day it is beucase I am all over the place all night long. We saw her pediatrician earlier this week who made some good suggestions that we are incorporating immediately. Lauren's always been over the top, dramatic, needy, vocal, and demanding...........so this is going to be hard becuase there has been alot of crying on her part and alot of guilt on my part. Bottom line is we need our space. Literally. I'm not good at tough love. I want to bed over backwards to make my kids happy. I never want them to wonder how much I love them. Sadly, this makes me feel like she thinks I suddenly don't love her as much. What a complicated feeling.
On the other hand, I only dream of Blake needing me this much. I want him to be a momma's boy but he's definitely not. At least not at this stage. If it roars, works, has tires or makes noise then he's cool with it. Mom doesn't do those things so at this point he's okay just to say hi to me in passing. He doesn't want to be hugged, carried, snuggled, or loved on for longer than a millisecond and it makes me sad. It's kind of the reason I really felt I wanted more kids so I could balance out all the differing personalities, never havign to worry if one felt favored over the other just becuase they are so different on every level. With one child of each extreme it is sort of a challenge to balance the vast differences BUT.........there will be no more kids and I'll find a way to balance what I've got :) Adding that to my goals for 2011.
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